Grateful for friendships that pull you out of the darkness - or let you stay there if you need to.

Do you ever feel stretched too thin?

Sometimes I feel that way.

I feel as though my heart wants to do so so much and so my head jumps in fully and then before I know it too much gets lost along the way.

And then there's so much to do and so many things to think about and suddenly ...

I stop.

I stop it all.

I hole up a bit.

I freeze.

I go off track.

Try not to be found.

I'm here - but I'm not answering the phone.

I've got my music blaring and my head is elsewhere.

My heart's exploding because the emotions are bubbling to the surface and suddenly I recognize.

I realize that those things ... all of those things ...

They're great. They're wonderful.

I truly DO want to do it all.

But sometimes they're distractions.

Sometimes I want to forget about feeling homesick.

I want to let go of the loss and the grief and the pain.

Sometimes I just want to move forward and find my way through the fog.

Whereas other times I need to wallow in it a bit.

And I need you to let me.

I've got incredible friends who listen when I hurt.

They know who they are. I won't point them out here.

They're the kinds of friends who don't need recognition. They're happy functioning in secret.

Supporting. Loving. Listening.

Reminding me that I don't have to come out and play if I don't want to, but that when I do they'll be there.

These are friends that come from this Internet world I call home. This blogosphere that has become so much more than a place to write and share my words.

A place where friendships form and last.

I'm truly grateful for those who pull me out of that darkness, but know me well enough to let me stay in it for a while when I need to.

Because sometimes?

I just need to.

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