You guessed it.
Me.
It's been a hell of a day here in my house.
It started first thing this morning.
I'm not living large right now.
Not loving life.
I probably wouldn't even be posting right now if it weren't for NaBloPoMo.
National Blog Posting Month.
Yep.
Every November.
I try to post every single day.
I don't really succeed.
But I try.
Now.
Back to motherhood.
Some days, man.
Some days I just want to throw in the towel because I can't do a single thing right.
Today?
Was one of those days.
Also, hi, I started Whole30 yesterday so I have nothing to eat in the house but eggs and sweet potatoes. So I am ill-prepared and slightly starving.
Good times.
And I have a lonnnnng day ahead of me tomorrow that is filled with loads of things relating to the child.
It will be busy and there will be so many things to do, so much happening, and this child, this piece of my heart that walks around outside of my body? Will be on my mind the entire time.
And even in the moments of exhaustion - even in the moments where I'm gritting my teeth and taking deep breaths? Even in all of those moments? I still know.
I know there will be good days again.
I know emotions run high and sometimes they're confusing and uncontrollable.
And I know - I know that the coming days will be better.
But I also know that on some nights?
Some nights we just call it a wash and say good night, everybody.
This?
This is one of those nights.
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And of course, as I created a small graphic for this post? It all came together. It all turned okay. I don't know how long it will last, but for now? For this moment? We're okay.
This motherhood gig, friends.
It's simply not for the faint of heart.
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Oh man, you aren't kidding. Parenting is the absolute toughest,but you just have to keep moving forward because that's what they need from us. You're an amazing mom. Period.
ReplyDeleteDon't forget the beginning of whole 30 is rough. It turns out good, but is rough. That probably isn't helping the tough right now.
ReplyDeleteThanks for spear heading the writing month. I am totally stuck on what to write, but glad to be working toward it anyway.
Thinking of you. Parenthood PLUS a big change in diet? Not fun.
ReplyDeleteHang in there..........each day starts fresh and new! I can relate to your diet, just started the KETO Diet....talk about filling up the garbage can with what I can't eat! Thank goodness for Pork Skins! Any who.......I raised 4 kiddos by myself and each day was a challenge in of itself just to keep going, but the good news is that they grow up to love you so much for everything you have done for them and hopefully call you once a day!
ReplyDeleteIt really isn't! Hang in there. You've got the right attitude! (Also, Whole 30? I'm impressed.)
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